Introduction The Hengrove Poems
To the Memory of Marjorie Moreton In May, 2000, I visited my father in Bristol, England. He was still living in the house where I had spent my adolescence (the house where I'd been born and spent my childhood was on the next street—we were not a restless family). I'd been over to see him the previous two years and each time was excited by the evenings we'd spend talking about his past. As a boy I had ignored stories of his childhood and life in the war; our recent discussions, though, were very different. Now I was eager to listen. But there was a problem: despite all my enthusiasm and interest, when I returned to Canada all I had to hold on to, to remind me of what we had talked about, were a few notes and they soon lost their life. So when I went over in May 2000 I took a small tape recorder with me and in the evenings while we were drinking cans of bitter from the off-license Down the Hill, I questioned him about what I had studiously ignored as a boy, and recorded what he said. This time, when I returned home I knew I had our discussions on hand. But "knowing that" wasn't adequate, so I transcribed them, in order to "know what." The act of working word by word on what he'd said and sometimes syllable by syllable made me especially aware of what he had said and of how he had said it. I was amazed. Nothing dramatic had happened to our family since dad had got a trial for Bristol Boys in 1930. Here, in the transcription I saw descriptions of small events whose drama I had never recognized, and in our small neighbourhood, too. They held together like the doughboys floating in mum's stews. I wanted to save them and share them with anyone else who might be interested. So I experimented, by setting them out as individual items and then as "found poems." Isolating the events, as these typographical and rhythmic manipulations did, threw the dignity of the actions, thoughts and attitudes expressed into relief, drawing my attention even more to details I hadn't noticed. I sorted them into a sort of chronological arrangement and read them aloud. Somebody not coming form this era or district might have difficulty placing them, I thought; they needed some sort of frame. My first plan was to introduce each poem with a description of the places they were written about, or where dad was sitting as he talked. But as I set about preparing the descriptions, what dominated my thoughts were my own memories of the places he spoke about. While places in Hengrove, Knowle and Bedminster were the setting for the events of the war he spoke about, I was gripped by the places and the small dramatic episodes I myself associated with them a little later as a young children war was just something we used to frighten ourselves with in the school playground. Our neighbourhood gained a life I'd never been aware of before. I've always been very conscious of the very small area of Bristol where I was brought up, and seen from two perspectives it gained a sort of independent existence I'd never thought possible. I found this very satisfying since when I was young I was very resentful that no one had ever heard of Hengrove whenever I told them where I lived. But people populated the places we talk about in these poems, people whom I could not dissociate from the places, as I realized when the formal and informal names of family found their way into my framing pieces. (I keep their names at the risk of sounding sentimental.) Places and people were the experience. They came to life again in my head as I was writing, and are still alive, I hope, in these poems, as alive as the hens scratching about in the Canadian snow I see now as I write this introduction.
Barry Fox, March 2005, Upper Falmouth, Nova Scotia, Canada.
Bill Fox had many jobs but during the war he was a "tool and cutter grinder" at the Bristol Aeroplane Company, far away on the other side of the city, repairing and sharpening the tools of mechanics who made the aeroplanes. Our family lived in Petherton Gardens during the war. Later we moved to Dennor Park.
Barry Fox went to Petherton Road Infants School and then Tyning Junior Mixed School . He was a seconder in the 256th Christ Church Wolf Cub Pack and loved to watch the speedway up at the dog track. In 1960 he had a poem published in the Western Daily Press (did Tom Stoppard selct ir for the editor?), later one in the Sheffield Telegraph. The Times Literary Supplement said he was an angry young man but it wasn't always clear what he was angry about. Later he became a teacher and went to live in Canada.
Footnotes [1] The Bristol Aeroplane Company [2] The Bristol Aeroplane Company at Filton on the other side of Bristol made airplanes for the war. [3] Christ Church Hall. [4] Queen Elizabeth's Hospital was ( and is) an old grammar school founded in the sixteenth century. The yellow stockings were part of the school uniform. [5] Bristol City was the football team supported by everyone from Bedminster. Its ground was called "The City Ground." [6] The Pink 'Un was the Saturday evening paper from the Evening World. It was filled with Saturday's sports news, local and national. It was originally printed on pink paper. [7] Ashton and Bedminster are old districts of Bristol, both with a strong sense of local identity. |
They both scrathced at one time, in their own ways.
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by William and Barry Fox
Poems for two voices about an unknown part of Bristol before, during and after WWII
You can read these poems in sequence by scrolling down. To choose individual poems, click on the name of the poem from the list below.
3 Establishing the Provenance: Broad Walk, Knowle 8 Southsea 10 When I Went to Join Up First 12 Petherton Gardens: After an Air Raid 13 The Irises 15 Overhead Bombers in East Street, Bedminster 16 Guarding Whitchurch Aerodrome 18 Arresting a Man in Cadogan Road 19 Cadogan Road and the Stream on Airport Road 20 Trying to Sign Up the Second Time 22 Have My Rifle, He's a Good One 25 The Scores in the Evening Post 28 Young Drunk Pilots at the City’s Ground 32 The Pond Where They Built the New School
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1. Gathering the Facts
So here I am, back at Number 25, On my third visit in three years, And sitting on the couch I left behind When we moved off to another world A third of a century before.
This time I’ll catch the past, capture the shots Of sixty years ago, as my father Talks and I record on tape. For my whole Childhood and each recent year, my memory’s Failed to clasp, to hold, what he saw For more than a few heightened months. And his provides less detail every year.
I switch on the machine, fear he’ll dry up, Just as his mother did, when, as a kid With a never-before heard-of machine I recorded and played back what she’d just said About a neighbour, certain that the whole Of Bedminster heard what she'd just said.
No need to worry. He took it as a pleasant Evening in, to talk beside the newGas fire. A bit slower than he used to be, But solid still, he spoke, always deferring To some unseen, independent listener Who might perhaps one day see it all.
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There was a man came round Bedminster Sunday lunchtime. My mother always Referred to him as Dirty Jack. And all the neighbours, because he looked Filthy dirty.
He’d been up the early hours of the morning Going across to the moorsGetting water cress. Now water cress Was another thing where people could get, What shall we say, the wrong thing. He knew what water cress was. It would be wild.
You could have a great big lot from Dirty Jack. Mother and the neighbours would wash it -- Salt and all that on there, lovely! Now that was a green, you see; That’s what you lived off of.
Hygiene then was a different thing. So you had to watch what you were eating.
Now if you buy it, It’s all processed. And they ask a lot more money.
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3 Establishing the Provenance: Broad Walk, Knowle
When mum and I got married We lived in the front room of Broad Walk For a period, until we got the house, The bungalow, because they were empty.
Now, whilst we were there, Olive and Ken got married And they went to live in the front room So if mum and I, you and Jackie Went up to Broad Walk to see Nan, Olive would be there. Ken was in the war.
“So you didn't have the six of you Olive and Ken, Marj and Bill, Edith and Ted All in one house?” I asked.
“Oh, you're talking about Uncle Bill and all that?
“No.” I said. “You are the Bill. Did you and mum Nan and Gramper Auntie Ol and Uncle Ken Live together in that house?” “No, no, no, we never. We lived in there first As I explained,
Then Olive and Ken got married And they lived in there And when Ken come home They went over Brislington Opposite where Uncle Bill had the shop.”
“But how did you see Nan When there were air raids? Did you go to their house?”
“Auntie Elsie was living there then. Remember Big Fat Auntie Elsie? We have been up there when Nan's been ill. And that's when we heard all about this.”
“Oh, I see; so you didn’t actually see Her crawling under things?”
“No, but we knew From what we were told That it was true. There's no question.”
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Marj Moreton at No 98
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When there was a shortage of beer, That was when I was living in Broad Walk, Then. About six months. He'd go out by the gate, lean on the gate And then might come back in and start to put on his boots. Nan Moreton had polished them for him. Kept them by the fireplace. She always helped him put them on. Anyway. He’d start putting his boots on. I' d say “Where you going then, Ted?” He’d wave his hand in the air, not saying anything. That’s it! that's him! I had to wait then to hear what he had to say. I said “There isn’t any beer about.” “The Talbot.” I said “How d’you know?”
He'd get out there and he’d see certain blokes That liked a drink, and if he saw them going one way That pub was open And if they went the other way That was “The Friendship.”
He certainly was an amazing bloke, mind you. He was a boozer. If Bill Taylor was alive he’d tell you a thing. He’d go in the pub; perhaps there might be three of us-- Bill Taylor, myself, and Ted And he’d go up to the counter And he would (tap, tap) one finger out (tap tap) And stand. He didn’t say anything, just draw attention.
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You could never get to the bottom of what he was. Never found out exactly What it is. The story went-- I don’t know whether Nan knew, How she met him. I never knew much about it at all-- There was a little whisper, you know, Around in the family somewhere That he'd been to university. Which was a job to get there in those days But whether there was truth in it I don't know. He was an orphan.
He was one on his own, a man on his own, If you know what I mean.
(Auntie Beattie said he was a brilliant man. “Give him the number and he’d tell you the hymn.”)
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It was presumed Nan Moreton had asthma, shock asthma, in the war. Now whether there's any truth in that I just don't know. I mean, the doctors can say that, They can say “she've got asthma” so much “How she get that?” “Shock, war, and all that”
At the time of air raids She used to crawl under anything out the way, She was terrified
Go down the air raid shelter when the bombs started then Crawl under a chair or anything
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Nan Fox and my dad, Mum and I, We were at Southsea.
They’d gone down there for the week And we went down to see them for the day.
Every body was down there. But the papers were coming out, Then everybody wanted to get back home As quick as they could.
We chased back, Mum and I.
It was quite a pleasant trip actually. But anyway we rushed, And got home quickly Because there was talk of planes coming over And bombing And parachute troops And all that.
Everybody had a thought in their minds Of what might happen
As far as I was concerned, myself, I don’t know why it was, But I was never worried about it, Wasn't concerned about it, ever. I had a sort of feeling that it couldn't happen. I think Churchill built up a wonderful feeling That we’d never be conquered.
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Adelaide Fox, William Fox and Marjorie Fox
Marjorie Fox
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There must have been a navy; I saw the blue RN on white of the packets of their cigarettes I’d dive for to take home. -- I already had “Three Castles,” "Range Rider" “Scissors ”-- Never a warship, just the Queen Mary Or Elizabeth steaming along that horizon, Sending their massive wash Over, perhaps under and past the paddlers, Anticipating, watching, waiting, battered, Up the beach. Too big to jump or face.
We watched the ship twenty minutes before From the beach through dad's dad's old Binoculars we kept in a scratched mock Leather case, where, at the bottom, we stored Emergency toilet paper just in case.
I didn't see it at the time, but I never saw Any leftovers from the war there; Then. No men without a leg outside shop doorways, Like home. No bombed-out shells, museumed homes, wallpaper Through arches of rough bricks, a strip Of pelmet , exposed urinals.
We went there by train from Temple Meads, When Dad'd come home from work and washed and changed. He walked along with mum and us behind Up the long incline from the bus, a brown Suitcase, strapped tight, in each hand for balance. That Saturday he’d buy me a comic book I’d keep for years, to read on the journey down. Once seated, (me paralysed by eagerness and pride) We'd watch him pull up sharply And then let slide through his fingers The leather strap, thicker than the belt Around his waist, that dropped the window down And that he’d raise fast enough if he forgot A tunnel, especially that long one Somewhere past Bath, to keep the soot From flying in. The short ones? We just laughed at those. Look, there’s the White Horse, who saw It first? carved in the chalk hills in whose eye Aunt Polly and dad’s mum had had a picnic.
And now here’s Salisbury Station, half way there, Dreaded so deeply though we wanted it, Where we wait, and Dad gets out and disappears While clink clink clanking shuffles its way along And back through all the carriages as we Rendezvous with another train, strangers Agree, and us full of terror he might Not come back in time to pass the cups of tea, Through the opened window, for him and mum.
We took our ration books along with us And gave them in to the lady who cooked us food. And we topped and tailed in a canvas camp bed.
On the beach the adults loll in deckchairs Trousers rolled up, big hankies on their heads, Buy pots of tea, leave half a crown deposit. Wanting to look adult your ice cream comes In a wafer, but don’t squeeze hard. Sometimes Some aunts and uncles drive down to join us, For a day or two. (That’s Auntie ElsieDigging in her bag, looking very hard For something the deckchair man wants when he Comes round for the hour’s rent. Sometimes He gives up waiting; sometimes she has to pay.) They stay in a hotel though.
One day, in the rain-- us not allowed To stay indoors--we walked around, and I saw Some Andrews Sisters helping out on the stage On the pier where you could print your name on strips Of metal, where a crane behind a glass case Always missed grabbing what you wanted Depositing emptiness for you in the little shoot, Where you bought candy floss and dad licked His hands and patted the sides to stop it floating off Or sticking to people if they walked too close.
On Friday night, when it was dark, already In pyjamas, covered up, we went out just To watch the Queen in fireworks on the pier. And Saturday, the week up, the bags strapped tight, My father took us that morning for a last Look round, perhaps for ever, a year Was close to ever, and dad would buy A hammer that they'd wrap and he'd take back home with him.
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Auntie Elsie tried to bluff her way out of paying
for the deckchair rent
by trying to
wear out
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Aunt Rose’s first husband Harry Jelfs Wrote Nan and Gramper during World War One From Southsea Commons where he did his drill. (I've got the letter here), he'd been quite ill -- They’d filled his arm with enteric fever germs To keep him healthy when he went abroad. Wrote “Tell Jim Pring to join the Royal Berks (Was that a pun?) It’ll make a man of him,” And signed “I Remain, your affectionate brother-in-law” A month before they shipped him off to France; (Apart from the misplaced capital, a good letter From one who finished school at twelve (He must have paid attention all the time)) And 12 months after, unrecognisable, he died. His missing- and unrecognisableness Are witnessed on a pillared temple, a mass -ive monument behind an Arras (France). Designed by Sir Edward Lutyens. Lest we forget. --Another family brush with the truly great.
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10 When I Went to Join Up First
When I went to join up, Which you had to, Not join up actually, You had to go to the It was the labour exchange Put your name down for what force you wanted to go in And my school pal, school mate, Bert Cochrane He said to me, “Join the Navy, Bill.” He said, “Let’s join the Navy together.” We’d still kept friendly after we left school. He worked in Marden’s and I was out the BAC.[1] And I said “Uh, no. I don’t fancy the Navy.” “No, I said, “I’ll join the Air Force.”
Well, you had to get in different queues. If you wanted to join the air force you got in one queue. They had it up there, hanging on the wall: “Navy” or whatever it was you wanted to join. We were in the next line to each other. I was in one and we were sort of going down Till we got to the desk And he was calling over to me (Well he wasn’t the only one And other blokes were trying to talk to other blokes.) And I said, “No, I don’t fancy the Navy.”
Any way I joined, I put my name down, That’s all you had to do. And it was there. That was why later in the war I went down to the Air Force To see if I could join More or less, knowing very well I’d applied, Thinking they’d have that record.
Any way, old Bert, He went in the Navy And he went down with the Repulse. That was the Japs put that one down. I don’t think there was anybody saved out of that one. The lot went down. The Repulse.
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That was Bert Cochrane. I’d heard him say the name Once or twice, I think, when small, part of the world Of cockles, chitt’lin, the faggot and pea shop, The Hen and Chickens, Chinny Pope.
I sat down on my return to find out More, thanked Heaven for the Internet. I didn’t know that Famous Sunken Ships Was such a market. Oil paintings, proof copies And fine prints of HMS Repulse float Up and down and all across my screen; And here’s a story of a Japanese Fighter pilot, the morning after, dropping Fresh flowers where it sank, in honour of Its bravery. Bert Cochrane’s name, though, Cannot be reached. But I do find out about Two great uncles from different ends Of Wessex, killed in the Great War: Where they are buried, the day they died. (Saturday for both), and about the few Survivors from that celebrated ship who, Far from the South China Sea, still keep in touch.
And I do keep seeing old Bert and Dad Move side by side in different lines.
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12 Petherton Gardens: After an Air Raid
At 4 o’clock in the morning, on one particular time, there was a very very bad bombing session that was all over Bristol generally. It went on all night. When the all-clear went we came out of the shelter. I remember walking down our road and into the field. I was amazed to see cows led down in the field. Some were stood up; they were all Motionless. They were just like you might see Carved out of something. You could have gone Right up to them. They hadn't moved and they Didn’t move then. The first one to move-- I always remember this becauseArthur Nightingale, he was with me, And we were talking about it-- And I think it was somewhere Around about three or four hours after Before the first cow moved.
Further down in the field we could see Something we thought was a cow. It was a horse. He'd come down from Dundry, all across the fields Jumping barbed wire fences. He was ripped to blazes Where he hadn't really jumped them. He’d gone through them, If you know what I mean. So terrified.
Finished up Flat out on the field. To be quite honest there was a few dogs down there, Biting away at it. That's just how it was.
And of course a huge great crater was out there And Nick from just up the road Used to go over swimming in it.
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That was the field where, half way down, The acorns and oak apples grew Huge and massive and wide, and beneath, I couldn't understand where from, a single daffodil Used to grow, curious, for several years.
In a far corner, just beyond that tree, Left over from the days when martyrs burned, A small sign, set back in a hedge, White letters on black board, exposed and peeling, Said: “Trespassers will be persecuted.” Would they imprison me in Dundry Tower? (It had a block; sometimes they cut off heads.) And adults owned the world, they had the right. I fainted inside slightly whenever I walked past, Hoped it was gone, prayed it would disappear. At the other corner of the field stretched A marshy pond, we might come upon Only on strange days, perhaps once a year. We gave it wide berth, even then, lurking In low land, flat pats all around, deep holes In mud cow foot on cow foot had plunged, then Re-plunged, showing the suction that could pull Us down until only a hand for a friend To hold onto, heroically, and pull Us out with, was left out, faintly waving. He'd know The way to save us, from the films, but we knew That danger, always imminent, too well.
One evening, just before dusk, returning From visiting the birds’ nests we valued most, Tucked into hedges, with an egg or two Lovingly taken and skilfully blown Through a thorn hole top and bottom, we, Taking a short cut, suddenly found them, Purple in the gauze light, The irises. What made us stop to grasp the thick stalked things I don’t know, but we did, time leaving us To ourselves, finding out spots for stepping in, First far then further, without getting wet, Our feet, finding false purchase on the odd Thin-grassed clumps of mud, pulling, unable To snap them off, and pulling until Up they came, roots and all. Dusk speckled The light as we trailed home.
When I got home the darkness was quite firm. Mum seeing me, at the stove, burst into tears. I’d never seen her cry before and told Her so with unfeigned curiosity. You’re safe. Of course. The only danger I Was in was of getting mud all over My shoes and socks. Why would I not be safe? I gave her the irises and she cried again.
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You didn’t need permission not to turn up If there’d been bombing. At the time they were bombing Bristol They’d be bombing the BAC. [2] One time I was home at night They bombed the BAC. Well, I say bombed it; They bombed and some of the glass Or whatever was on the roofs Was broken. You couldn’t work in there With light showing out through.
But anyway The thing is If they were bombing here They were bombing the aerodrome at the BAC. So there were problems all the way round.
When the war started They gave us a sheet that said If there was a raid We had to hide in the hedges In the fields outside.
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15 Overhead Bombers in East Street, Bedminster
I happened to be in East Street at the time. Everybody wondered, what’s all the noise? About 50 or 60 planes, Germans, And our air force met them.
Their bombers, and that, were right upAnd our planes, Spitfires, Were right at the bottom
And everybody was looking up! Watching it!
There was our planes going up And underneath them; Firing at them, And going up higher, And then coming back down.
Brought a hell of a lot down. Hell of a lot.
The bombers came over with fighters to protect them.
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16 Guarding Whitchurch Aerodrome
The Dutch pilots, When the war was more or less starting, They, many of their army and air force, Came over here to fight, over to us. If they'd stopped there they either got killed or else.
And these huge transport planes Were left on the ground On the aerodrome down there.
There were no English planes down there. All Dutch. (When I say “all,” don't get me wrong. There wasn't hundreds of them.)
We were there to protect those planes From any landings. Parachutists was the thing, Germans.
I suppose if it was forced They could have landed planes down there But they never did Because we had guns there to protect it.
No, don't joke; it was a serious business really. There was a fellow in training in our lot. We used to run up hills with guns And all our equipment, training really seriously And he collapsed and died. It wasn't a case of checking up to see If you were fit enough to be in the Home Guard. You could have had all sorts wrong with you, And people did.
We were there for the whole night, until daylight Not allowed to sleep at all And I’d been to work all day.
I wasn't on guard every night, mind; Sometimes we’d be training up at Broad Walk But a certain amount of men Would always be over there Might have been from the Tenth Battalion (We were the Tenth) It could have been The Eighth or Ninth. We had a duty to do every so often To go over and guard that place.
For eight hours. As I say I finished work at five o'clock.
You just went out to walk round For about two hours, all the way round the drome, And behind you at intervals Of probably quarter of an hour to twenty minutes There'd be another two. And when you'd got back To your quarters then another lot would go out. |
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And you'd stay back in and probably sit down And have a smoke for awhile. And you might get another duty in the early hours, Perhaps from 4 o'clock till six.
I got the plans of the trenches. I wrote them on this piece of paper Just to make sure.
You could see the aerodrome From where we lived, just across the fields; But we had to form up and march back to Broad Walk And then we'd walk home.
If we'd been on all night We'd be excused from work. Probably go in lunch time.
Other days I’d do a 12 hour day. I’d leave Home for work in the morning about six o’clock Catch the bus, then get home about 7.
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Now I can’t see the aerodrome if I look out, Nor where it was. There's nothing guarding Us now or to be guarded: the school I watched Being built, the roads of houses, are grey, And an Azda fills the final gaps.
Somewhere behind, a little to the right Bright air balloons now rise on Sunday Afternoons, red, blue and white, sacs of hot air, Controlled and partnered by a latter-day few To whom so many now owe such a lot, Who rise or fall on pork bellies and winter wheat , Hang over in the wind, though free to fly.
The barrage, balloon elephants, I watched through the hawthorns, tethered by wires I Couldn't see, to the ground, loosely around The aerodrome, stirred me far more, Made my mind whir, wondering could they Keep the Germans off who Wednesday playtimes flew Over our school in endless echelon?
(No one told us in Forty Nine the war Was over, ever. How could we know If they were friend or foe?)
Like my clear-minded belief In Father Christmas who each year landed Behind the house and walked across the field Just for our road. One year, I now suppose, He must have stayed at home, at any rate I never heard again, trying to sleep, His engine, thrumming, awaiting his return.)
Then, I could see arched hangers and a runway Plain black and flat upon the fields that stretched Unhindered to the hills, to mysterious Maesknoll Tump (built by the Romans for their Slaughtered dead—we found no bones-- and Dundry, With the tower we knew had been prepared For if the Armada’d ever beaten Drake. A windsock, too, without a foot, stolen From some impoverished scrawny giant, A great shredded wheat of a thing, like what Nan kept beside her bath to wash her back For showing pilots where they ought to land.
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18 Arresting a Man in Cadogan Road
Well four of us went to this house.
We walked down in the road, (In the road, Not on the pavement Not in the middle of the road), Four of us with guns An officer as well. We went to this house. Two of the privates stayed in the front And two walked round the back. (I mean that was done by us, but God knows It must have been done all over England.)
And when he came out, (Naturally he had to come out, if he was home) He would walk in between the four people. And walk up to headquarters And he’d have to report.
And once he’d reported He was a Home Guard and signed. So if he didn’t turn up he was a deserter.
For which the punishment would be greater. That’s how it was.
I was in one of the details for Cadogan Road. Marched all along, up through Salcomb Road, Up onto the main Wells Road, And back round to the headquarters in Broad Walk. It sounds strange to people I suppose.
It didn’t matter how he marched. If he didn’t march in time He was going to get his heels kicked up. Wasn’t he? He didn’t probably know His left foot from his bloody right foot. You didn’t know the characters. So that’s what we used to do.
He was probably a decent sort of a bloke, But perhaps he may have been A conscientious objector. Could have been.
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Other blokes, some of these fellows, died Because they weren’t fit. They were doing Home Guard duties. It was strenuous. I remember one fellow-- We had all sorts of weapons One was a Lewis gun Which were things on the ground which you fired -- Who got a nasty cut across his eye When we were out on duties, Where he got too close And the gun came back.
But there you are. You had to defend the country.
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19 Cadogan Road and the Stream on Airport Road
One winter after the war, in the greatest Of snows, before or since, I walked With an aunt up Cadogan Road, wearing Socks outside my shoes to help me grip, To stop me slipping, as I climbed its slope. With the rest of the family too.
They lifted my sister’s pushchair across The Airport Road, up and over the kerbs To where the pavement lay-- We all laughed at the funniness of it all.
Later I cycled down it on a bike Without brakes and wheels as big as dinner Plates and across the Airport Road, without Stopping (the aerodrome was still open then) To see if Mum was up at Nan’s Though she’d told me she wouldn’t be, And never to cross that dangerous main road.
Just at the top, one day, before they built The pub, an open manhole’d gathered quite A crowd: a pig must have found its way along A water drain beneath Cadogan Road To here. I too peered down, keeping well Back from the edge. Odd for a pig to have Such hair and bark. And I'm still amazed There'd been a farmer with a pig so close To anywhere where I might choose to play.
Cadogan Road still leads to Airport Road Though the airport it led down to’s long since gone. Following it you used to reach Broad Walk And where the Home Guard had its church hall base. That way's been blocked now; and the Home Guard, too. Unnecessary, they've closed down. |
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New buildings, easy to manage homes For the elderly or families of one, Are now on the road that leads off to the right. My father in his clean but rusting car Used to take shopping, when he retired, A friend who rented there. When he carried in Her shopping (she had trouble managing The steps) as he always did, he always Locked the car (and when he got home he’d Always chamois it) . Once, last, though, before He reached her door he turned and saw it Driving off. And that was that. Now he is back On foot again and always will be now. They found the car, next day, in the stream Beside Airport Road, burnt out. But someone Must have mended it, put it back on the road. A month after, the police from South Wales phoned Gave him the details of a car, asked was it his. A gang had used it as a getaway After they'd tried to rob a Cardiff bank.
Unknown to all the mutiny of war When neighbours armed took a malingerer off.
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20 Trying to Sign Up the Second Time
I went down to Stokes Croft in the car. I’d got really fed up working out at the BAC On the machines. I thought “I can be doing better than this.” I went down Stokes Croft And tried to sign up for the Air Force.
It was on one lunch time. I had the car at the time. I went in and saw the bloke. I said, “I’d like to join the Air Force.”
“OK .” He asked a lot of questions. Took all the writing down. “Where d’you work.” I said “BAC.” “What d’you do.” I told him. “OK, You’ll hear from us.” Never did. When I mentioned the BAC Wouldn’t let me go. I was doing a job there. I mean, they couldn’t take everybody.
Yeah, I did.
I never said anything to mum. Probably I knew very well they wouldn’t let me out. Just satisfied myself.
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When I went up to join, The first time, The same day I had a letter asking me to go, Straight up, no messing.
I joined with this fellow Ron Pool And a couple more. But Ron and I got palled together. We just struck up a friendship. We both liked a pint. And we were both very good shots, Very good shots.
We always used to say We could fire better if we'd gone in the Talbot And had a couple of pints Before we used to go on duty. Or at least I did. I could fire just as well if not better After I'd had a couple of pints Which proved the point Because I got the cup For the best shot in the Home Guard. I’d never fired a rifle before, Till I went in the Home Guard. Never. One had never been in my hands. And when I joined the Tenth Battalion Of the Home Guard, Knowle, We weren’t using the big thing, 303s; We were using 202s, a smaller edition.
We never had the ammunition to waste too much. So we would practice probably once in three weeks Or it might be a fortnight or a month. And when you qualified you'd go on Through to the competition which I did, And Ron Pool did, But his marks dropped down. So I went on and I got to the final, Best shot in the Bristol Home Guard.
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They had to keep firing regularly Until a few of them dropped out, And a few more; till at last There was eight of us left altogether. That was Frank Bennett, an ex-Bisley shot, And two officers. Out of the eight there was only two privates, That was myself and another young lad.
They give us our bullets. We'd load our guns And we started off Five or six hundred yards at a target.
My eyesight was brilliant then. At a target about the size of a man 's head So you had to get down with a really steady hand. And then you'd fire.
Your score would come up And the officer would come back with it Then you'd move forward
To four hundred yards. Fire five shots in a certain time, Lying down; then 200 yards; Then it was 100 yards rapid fire. We were close to the targets. You didn't get much time to get down.
When the score come back It was printed in the paper I got it upstairs somewhere. I think I had 8 bulls, and 2 inners. It was a brilliant score.
Don was in the army then. When Don used to come home on leave He was a regular army bloke. But it didn't mean that he was any bloody better Than anybody else. Ted Moreton used to think he was a good lad-- He was in the army. Anyway, I proved my point with the rifle.
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22 Have My Rifle, He’s a Good One
The strange thing about winning the cup is, (If Ted Moreton was alive he'd tell you) The rifle we were using was put in your charge And you had to hand it back in after you’d been firing. If you understand what I mean, There was rifles and rifles. The one you walked around with wouldn't be The one you'd use in the competition.
When it come to, of a Sunday morning, I went to the headquarters to get my rifle. Everybody else had theirs. I looked for mine; it wasn't there. I reported it--it had my name on it. And they said, “Well, somebody must have took it out.”
There was a sergeant there, a Scotsman, Ted Moreton knew him quite well. He said “Bill, have my rifle. He's a good un.” I said, “Well, I'll take your word for it.” And I used it; I used a rifle that wasn’t my own! Not as it made much difference, They're all made on the same lines.
Ted Moreton knew all about that. He used to see the bloke, Jock he was, In The Friendship And he told Ted all about it.
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Frank Bennett who was an ex-Bisley player (He never got through to the final. I was the only one out of the Tenth that got through.) Used to tell me When we used to go on the range, (He knew very well how good I was) (I'm not blowing my own trumpet) He used to say, “Bill why don’t you slow down a bit You're going at it too fast.”
But what happens is that When you bring the rifle up You sight, you see, You sight your target up
(I can't do it now, arthuritis.)
You bring your rifle up And you look through the sights. And when you're on target, you fire. But if you come up And you're not sure Then you have to get down again Hold your head down, Close your eyes, Then come back up.
I used to come straight up And as soon as I was on the target I'd fire.
It paid off. Any way, As I say, I got that cup for it.
The best shot in Bristol.
I never had anything printed on it, though.
I always dreaded they might pick me to be a sniper If the Germans ever invaded. I mean, he probably didn’t want to fight, No more than me.
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We always kept the Glass Dish on the right Of the Sideboard, by the Silver Cup. In it we stowed the things we never wanted To throw away, bus tickets and chocolate Wrappings to buy wheelchairs and guide dogs Minute playing cards. Only the settee Opened twice a year equalled it for thrills When, on a Sunday morning Dad untacked The sacking underneath the frame and took out What had slipped out of pockets. Mostly Forgotten, the mystery of six months before, Brought back, alive, but never warm again.
The Sideboard had its own life too, had survived A bomb that fell through the top, one air raid Night. (In fact a stone blown from a crater When a bomb fell in a field behind the house While we all lay still in the church hall up the road.)[3]
The Cup, though, sat, a bit black in places, With nothing in it, blank. Mum used the base once To kill a daytime mouse running the gauntlet Of her indignation along the window ledge, (The blood still there for us to think about When we came home from school). Won in the war for shooting when, if you Won a cup they always left the lettering off, Dad said; its provenance maintained just in His words. One June when we returned it had gone, Placed carefully in a cupboard somewhere.
Now on the wall a lovely clock reflects All the rays of the sun, and beams the hours-- The other award they gave to dad, This time at a proper ceremony By colleagues honouring him when he retired. Witnessed by all the works, who gathered round Him at the centre. Preserved in an album Of huge and glorious photographs.
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25 The Scores in the Evening Post That 99 I scored in the competition Would be out of the hundred, Out of the possible hundred. That was my score. On the target. Understand?
I’m not saying that happened every time. I had a couple of possibles. But most times I was 98 or 99. And you could see the scores in the Evening Post.
I got slips of paper in an envelope upstairs. Some of the people in the competition We were firing against Were down to about 80 odd.
And that’s the honest truth. Yeah, my sight was brilliant. Well, it must have been.
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The Evening Post was the paper the neighbours Opposite took. They owned their bungalow And a sports car with a dickie seat in the boot.
The Evening World was the paper we always read A few less pages but the green Wollygog Badge gave out more fun than the faded red Of the Post's Pillar Box club.
And they had a lorry around Christmas time That drove along Wells Road and sometimes, When Uncle Ken took to the back streets, We could pop out three or four times in the night Just ahead of it and once we caught its tail.
When everything in the world had settled down And peace lay over all the world The World closed down. The Post took over, The paper all Bristol asked for. But I Could never take an interest in its club.
Out of the blue one evening the Post Printed my letter explaining very Deliberately to the old people Who still liked Gracie Fields that Elvis Presley too had talent. And printed a page Of bitter replies from the aged ones, Calling me to shame. I was cross and showed In my immediate reply (also printed) How theirs were emotional responses That didn’t touch my logic. And I took care With clever awkwardness not to split An infinitive. Madame de Sauvignon And an unknown rhubarb farmer Also had letters published at that time; We were amazed it was so easy To hoodwink an editor. My friends gave me The accolade for writing the letter That evoked the most response.
But humiliated, despite my local fame, I burned the letters that were sent to me, On the open fire at home, unstamped, Unsigned, as mum and Nan looked on, wondering.
Later the Evening Post printed how I had managed On the running track, then my exam scores, Engagement, and the wedding announcement.
Here is a photograph of mum, who After a day at work and cooking us tea Had taken a bus to town to hear a talk from Somebody on health or food.
Tom Stoppard was working then at the Post. If only I’d known that it wouldn’t be long Before he too was famous. I left my home, though, When Rosencrantz was just starting at the Hippodrome.
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27 What Ruined my Sight
What ruined my sight a lot Was the fact that when I worked, Working at the BAC I worked a tool and cutter grinder Which sparks kept coming up from. You were supposed to wear glasses But sometimes, if you’re doing a tool, Grinding a very small tool, mind you, You wouldn’t know the spark was coming up. I sometimes used to drop my glasses.
The ones that were in that tin, out in the shed Those were the ones I used to use. The point is, To get my vision better because they’d dirty up I used to drop my glasses a bit to look. Of course, in flew a spark. Up the eye hospital.
I was up the eye hospital Which is still at the same place more or less If you went up there at all they had a book on you Mine was about three pages Printed and all that What they’d done to your eye the other times And I had pages Pages. I got told about it. They said, “You should wear the glasses.” I said, “Well, I do but I dropped them just for a few moments.”
Eye shades, I had loads of those about. Always wearing them.
What happens then is You get an ulcerated eye. Still. I’m still here.
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28 Young Drunk Pilots at the City Ground
Young pilots, young lads 18, 19 years of age.
I remember going, (Of course the football went on in the war. They had football teams. The City and all the others, Things were still going on then.) I remember going down to the City ground And they weren’t too far away.
It was Third Division South I used to go down there And a couple of these young lads. I knew one of them, At Queen Elizabeth,[4] The ones who wore the yellow stockings In their school uniform. I remember him because he lived Up by Bert Cochrane.
Him and a couple of others, They only looked boys. I mean I was a man up to them To look at. Drunk. They were going into the City ground. Whether any of them knew anything about football, They just carried on.
These were the pilots. Yes, never came back. No.
Shame really. I mean that’s, that was what they were doing. They were going in it, Fighting mad, sort of.
But there, some of them did come back.
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Saturdays, when we were older, and dad Went down the City ground after work, I’d listen to the football scores with mum On the radio in the kitchen and eat Cockles and brown bread. It was dark outside. I put the numbers roughly by the names Of towns I didn't know were towns, Truncated, squeezed and forced into The margin between the centre pages Of the Evening World (then they used every space) And wait for him to come home and say How clever I was, and perhaps one day To hear (I never did) he wouldn’t need To buy the Pink’Un[6] now from the chap We could hear calling out in the next road down.
And then we’d sit beside the fire, banked up with slag With a kettle perched upon the top, and look For visitors in the sparks that singed The chimney soot, careful of chilblains, Me on the coal bin with its lid up-cupped
And Jack on a cushion on Mum’s knitting box And listen to The Luscombs, In Town Tonight, and Jewel and Warris and dad would check How much the pools were going to send to us.
One day dad took me with him and I sat On his shoulders for part of the game And was thrilled, when we were leaving, to find If I lifted my feet I’d be carried, Blind, between the coats and backs of men, Like a small screw of salt, getting lost in A workman’s haversack, held up by their press As they hobbled slow, good humoured, towards A small gate, in a wall of brick, across their path.
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Once when a boy came on exchange from France I took him down, to show him our English game. And again I could hardly see, standing On such a gentle slope—feeling it wrong Kinaesthetically, and socially Insulting, to sit down in the stands with players On ten pounds a week, running flat out—
So many heads between me and the pitch. I had though burst with shock with the field Still in full view, before the crush arrived, To see such a vast expanse of green, In the middle of my town. And even When my neighbours’ heads Made blots, small glimpses of sheer vividness Still shot themselves out straight towards my eyes.
Sometimes, me home from university, We drove down to the City’s ground as man To man. But why did he always park so far Away? So he could beat the crowds when he Drove home, I’m boxing clever he said. We might as well have parked at Nan’s, his mother’s, Where, when we were small, we heard vague roars Mysteriously lower throughout the air from time To time, perhaps of a crowd and wondered if it Was a goal, and whose. And as we walked, he’d tell me Of the house where in the war someone Had filled his garden, front and back, with cars - No one had petrol then so they sold them cheap— And he’d hung on till after the war was over And made some money. That was where Les and Beattie Used to live. That player on the ground was good At convincing the ref he’d just been fouled. We stood beside each other and watched, dad Commenting, passing judgement, utterly sure But I, flat footed, could offer only platitudes Comments with no mass. He’d turn to the men Beside us and together, they’d exchange In ordinary words carrying The extraordinary weight and wisdom Of a century of life in Bedminster, or Ashton,[7] Applying it to what they saw right then. Then we’d walk back to the car talking Admiring the generosity Of drivers letting others into the line Because those others out of their own Generosity would let still others in. Just you watch.
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You asked me if I thought, “There’s a war going on I don’t know If I could bring a child into the world
No, no; there was no question about it. You got about life the same way. I mean over in this country Apart from going short of a few things, We had rationing, and all that, Bombs dropping and all that We were very fortunate, very fortunate. If you know what I mean We knew nothing about the war. To be honest about it. Although we had a rough time. But you could always think of people in France Which was in Europe Put it that way, That were open targets for the Germans But they couldn't get anywhere near us, though. So we were quite well off.
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31 Norny in the PondI come home from work one day And whilst mum was serving up my dinner Went down the garden to look at the few things I had down there And Norny was down in that pond, right behind us.
At each end it had a cobblestone entry That separated off two fields. The cows could go down so far But they couldn't get into the other field.
I heard such a shout down there just then. Lucky I'd gone down the garden at that time.
The cobblestones were all, The water had gone down a bit So what was left was a slimy surface. Norny must have (Because it happened to me When I was trying to get him out) Stood on it, and slid down on his bottom, Right into the water. Filthy. Mind, he was lucky.
It was simple enough for me to get him out. I didn't have to go swimming or anything like that I just had to go steady down over the stones-- I slipped on the cobblestones. But caught hold of his cardigan or whatever it was And hauled him up out of it.
If I hadn't been around he wouldn’t have got out.
His mother come out then. She must have been looking for him He was only about 4, 4 1/2 something like. So she was looking for him out in the field.
He was on his feet then, all covered in muck.
Later, he must have told her So she came down and thanked me. Then her husband came down, He said, “Thanks every so much. Have you done any damage?” “No, it’s only working clothes,” I said. “They'll wash.” I’d forgotten I had the gold watch on My mum and dad gave me for my 21st Of course I'd gone in and I drew in the watch. Never worked again.
He did ask me a little while after And I thought A kid's life been saved, as you might say.
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32 The Pond Where They Built the New School
I knew that pond well; too, fell into its thick Water, as a child, one winter when the thin ice I trod on broke, straddling the angle where The two fields met, holding the post from which The barbed wire strands stretched out from, all the way Between those fields, from here to way beyond The big tree where every year the rooks Had their raggedy hap-hazard colony, Swinging a rubber booted foot above And round but holding on with half a hand, Assuming that for me ice would cease to operate Its laws I trod on it with increasing Confidence till suddenly my strength of mind Surrendered and I slid down, beneath..
Until I thought of what dad said, and this Very act of writing, I’d forgotten How I’d gone under. There are the rusty wires Sticking out still;. I always snag my jacket On those barbs, so have to swing out wide Around the post; stand on the flat stone At its base. And me already under, Overcome, now by the old stones I'd
Never seen before, lining the side As I went down, my mouth still open. And down I went again.
At home I vomited out the green weed then was seated On the enamel draining board with my feet In a mustard bath in a bowl in the sink, Ashamed.
In summer, after, with the cows all gone And the corn fields, then the hay fields, grown, The water disappeared. The mud turned hard As iron; then, oh, the foresight, oh The power to do anything. I could see Them, mud balls, squeezed between my palms, paddled Into shape and dried, to load Inside the pop gun I might buy. Hoarded And hidden on the pond’s far side Beneath the dark hedge, that’s where I put them. Till I forgot them till another year When they had cracked and shrunken To irregular, misshapen peas, not mine. By then they were building a new school And I could stand on a pile of soil In what used to be fields where the cowslips grew, High above the bottom of a massive trench, With my mother’s shawl that would flyIf I ran fast enough downhill, behind me, And the handle of the dustbin lid, A convex shield, filling my hand. I filled The air, calling on the powers of all mythologies To join me as I invaded David Pugh Out there behind one of the other piles. Before he went in for tea and I could get him to yield.
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I grew these cowslips in Canada. In England they are wildflowers. They are the most marvellous flowers in the world.
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